Sunday, March 30, 2008

One Word

Yan is up way past her bedtime tonight-but for a very good reason. I put a Barney on for her to watch before she went to bed and after it was over she ran into my office. I said, "Yan it's time for you to go to bed". She said, "No". I asked, "Oh, do you want more Barney?", she replied with, "NO, Sesame"!!!! :-) AHHHHHH, music to this mama's ears.

To some a new word is a daily or even hourly occurance...but she has been working on the word "Sesame" (for Sesame Street) for a couple of weeks now. And she finally said it!! I cheered, clapped, praised her for talking and, of course, put on a "Sesame Street"! :-)

You would think that because I'm a Speech Pathologist I would understand how precious words are. I remember a few of my little clients saying their first words and their moms melting into a pile of tears. I was excited for them; I clapped and cheered, but man, I never knew how excited my heart would feel when it was my child struggling to get a word out.

I really and truely am trying to raise Yan without my "expectations". I don't want to limit her, expect too much or too little from her, or miss out on anything God is trying to say to or through her as we go through life. However, no matter how hard I've tried...I still fall short. Somewhere deep in my mind I have thought, well surely Yan will talk. I talk constantly, I'm a Speech path, I've helped other people talk-she just will. But it is probably the thing that is consistently the hardest for her.

I can see the wheels turning in her head as she struggles to make a word or even sound. She has so much to say, but her mouth is still not in sync with her head sometimes. So we will work, wait, pray and rejoice for each little victory! God is good and I'm so glad that I can savor every moment!
Hugs, Jenn

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Busy week, gotta see this!

We've had one busy week and I really need to catch up on things. I'll be sure to blog later about our first swingset injury :-(

However, I was reading another friends blog and saw this you tube've got to see it, it's incredible!

Catch up soon!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

He is Risen Indeed!

Happy Easter!! I hope that you were blessed with a wonderful time to celebrate our Savior's resurrection!

I've been pondering Easter this week and was thinking about how my thoughts about Christ have changed over the years. I think it's interesting how we go through different seasons in life and through them we learn more about Jesus. I remember how I felt the first Christmas and Easter after mom and dad passed away. I was thinking about how are holidays must pale in comparison to theirs, celebrating around the throne of God. We can see only small glimpses of the glory that they bask in on a daily basis. It brought the realization of eternity into a new light for me.

This newer season of motherhood has brought me a deeper understanding of the loss of Mary, and what God gave up when he "...gave His only begotten son". I truely can't imagine the pain of watching your child suffer and die on a cross-knowing that they did no wrong. I completely lose if Yan even gets hurt-I think I would have had to be constrained if I was Mary. I really can't imagine the pain. Then, after experiencing such acute grief, to see Him again-her joy must have been overwhelming.

But what must she have felt when people still didn't believe? Her son gave His life, was humiliated, shamed and killed to save the world-yet some still couldn't and wouldn't believe. What does it say about His sacrifice when someone doesn't believe? Was it not enough? How could any of us, totally imperfect people, do anything which even remotely compares to Christs' sacrifice?

Hmmmm. I'm just in awe that Christ did that for you and me!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Fun, fun, fun...

those are the 3 words that Emily Yan now uses to describe her gymnastics class! She loves it! "My Gym" is a gym for little kiddos that has branches nationwide. They are also affiliated with "Changellenged America", who helps individuals with disabilities. We are working with them to get a scholarship so that Yan can attend weekly classes. She was all smiles going into her second class today. She kept laughing so hard while on the trampoline that she would fall...she just cracks herself up! Here are some pics from class and from earlier in the (beautiful, springy) day!